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25 noviembre

Life for Rent

It's the first time I use ipod and am listening Dido's Life for Rent.
 
At this moment my life is not for rent but already rented, to the people around me, to the entities that I try to fit into. They walk in masks around the room of my life. But the bathroom only belongs to me, I could close its door and jus be myself.

22 noviembre

Democracy

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, I went shopping in Trader Joe's today and saw some homeless people on the way. All of a sudden the lyric of a Leonard Cohen's song came to me: http://disembedded.wordpress.com/2006/11/07/democracy-is-coming-to-the-usa/

"Democracy"
It's coming through a hole in the air,
from those nights in Tiananmen Square.
It's coming from the feel
that this ain't exactly real,
or it's real, but it ain't exactly there.
From the wars against disorder,
from the sirens night and day,
from the fires of the homeless,
from the ashes of the gay:
Democracy is coming to the U.S.A.
It's coming through a crack in the wall;
on a visionary flood of alcohol;
from the staggering account
of the Sermon on the Mount
which I don't pretend to understand at all.
It's coming from the silence
on the dock of the bay,
from the brave, the bold, the battered
heart of Chevrolet:
Democracy is coming to the U.S.A.

It's coming from the sorrow in the street,
the holy places where the races meet;
from the homicidal bitchin'
that goes down in every kitchen
to determine who will serve and who will eat.
From the wells of disappointment
where the women kneel to pray
for the grace of God in the desert here
and the desert far away:
Democracy is coming to the U.S.A.

Sail on, sail on
O mighty Ship of State!
To the Shores of Need
Past the Reefs of Greed
Through the Squalls of Hate
Sail on, sail on, sail on, sail on.

It's coming to America first,
the cradle of the best and of the worst.
It's here they got the range
and the machinery for change
and it's here they got the spiritual thirst.
It's here the family's broken
and it's here the lonely say
that the heart has got to open
in a fundamental way:
Democracy is coming to the U.S.A.

It's coming from the women and the men.
O baby, we'll be making love again.
We'll be going down so deep
the river's going to weep,
and the mountain's going to shout Amen!
It's coming like the tidal flood
beneath the lunar sway,
imperial, mysterious,
in amorous array:
Democracy is coming to the U.S.A.

Sail on, sail on ...

I'm sentimental, if you know what I mean
I love the country but I can't stand the scene.
And I'm neither left or right
I'm just staying home tonight,
getting lost in that hopeless little screen.
But I'm stubborn as those garbage bags
that Time cannot decay,
I'm junk but I'm still holding up
this little wild bouquet:
Democracy is coming to the U.S.A.

19 noviembre

毛毛生病

毛毛生病时。。。
他觉得发冷就拳成一团,嘴里唧唧咕咕地陈述着觉得好冷
或者弓着背晃来晃去,说明胃不舒服
或者哆哆嗦嗦找水喝,说明是要发烧
或者啊呀呀往沙发上一倒,说明是头痛
哎,可怜。。。 

Anselm Kiefer: Heaven and Earth

Anselm Kiefer's show 'Heaven and Earth' is in SFMOMA. There're his sculptures and paintings I've seen before in his books. As usual most of his works are supposed to be spiritual and disturbing. What I really enjoy this time was a sentense from his video:"Every artist is an illutionist". Think about it, isn't it so?

How are you doing?

I met her one day on the stairs after work. We said 'hi, how are you', 'fine... how are you?' 'It's cold today...' 'Bye, have a good evening' 'Bye, you too'. She picked up her mails and newspapers, and walked towards her apartment and said 'hi' to another neighbour. And I walked towards mine.
I wanted to ask her 'how are you doing?' in a real way, I wondered how she was doing and how her son was doing. I wondered whether she cried still and whether she needed someone to talk with, I wondered whether I could comfort her by inviting her over for a tea and I got some cookies. So I thought and thought and it's better for me to pretend it's just a normal 'how are you doing'. 


14 noviembre

老爸

一边和国内的同学聊天,一边不知怎么的想起了暑假回国时正好碰上中国情人节。 那天老爸和老妈拌嘴, 我就陪老爸去湖边散步。
聊啊聊啊,然后和老爸去泡咖啡厅。 那天和老爸对坐在咖啡厅桌子的两头分享着一壶咖啡和一根蜡烛。突然在烛光中觉得老爸是个挺有魅力的男人。从小一直觉得他可怕的高高在上, 不理解老妈当年是怎么看上老爸这个臭知识分子的。  当我现在日渐成熟, 从另一个角度观察时才发现老爸作为男人的有意思之处。 可能我越来越和他臭气相投了吧。
 

10 noviembre

Rabindranath Tagore (泰戈尔)

因为读了子尤,这两天读起了泰戈尔。
泰戈尔洋洋洒洒, 充满了想象力,很是浪漫主义。
想起来有意思,以前好像没怎么读过泰戈尔, 除了那首“世界上最远的距离“。 或者总是随手拾起又随手放下,读不下去。
现在反而有兴致读起来。 浪漫主义不再是能拨动起心弦的美酒, 而是平凡生活的点缀。
阳光和树, 流水和姑娘, 每一件事物都充满了爱。
 

06 noviembre

子尤的诗

在朋友的博客上看到子尤诗歌, 连到他的网站上去看了一眼。
这个16岁病弱的男孩子有着少女一样的敏感和细腻。那首‘两个人的奇迹‘荡漾着青春田园诗的浪漫主义。
 
没有调侃,没有嘻笑, 有激情,有做作,有纯美,有认真,一种年轻的认真和为了认真的执著。
读着他的诗, 我的心一动, 想起了海子, 想起了那个年纪时爱的心情,想起了那时春天的味道。
 
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两个人的奇迹

这是个开花的季节,
我拥有幻想,纸笔,和你
明天没有花开
只留给我回忆和回忆。

你拿着一朵百合站在床前
笑着说“每天都要来这里”
那是房间里最美的身影
最美好的身影,有最美好的心灵倾听

我的稿纸涂满爱的颜色
我的泪里有两人的分离
我愿在风中写上希望
轻轻地,没有一丝痕迹

我只想变成一个安静的小胖熊,
坐在山坡上,远远地看着你(本来想写树枝,后来觉得我和熊都不一定能爬上去)
让你吃新鲜的果子,听新鲜的和风,
还有新鲜的人心,新鲜的空气

朋友,你即将远走,
可我还有无限的昨天,无限的记忆
何时,我们会重逢
何时,是归来的日期

很快,随时随地,我们会再次相遇
是吗?你在哪里?我又在哪里?
(突然禁不住想写好好保重身体)
岁月是一段等待连接又一段等待
人生是一句话语遥望又一句话语

从汉到唐,我遇见你
日月光华,旦复旦夕!
从唐到宋,我遇见你
招之即来,挥之即去!

举杯邀明月!我遇见你!
对影成三人!我遇见你!
她望极春愁,我对酒当歌
我在时间的迷宫里寻找你!

行行重行行,与君生别离
踟躇亦何留?相思无终极
天地过客,万古为尘
怅然慨叹,归去来兮!

看见回眸一笑百魅生
感受此恨绵绵无绝期
他们相逢,他们欢笑
他们分别,他们哭泣

我的故事与他们不同
我的相遇爱上他们的相遇
这里有个词汇叫做想念
这里有种情怀叫做美丽

那是条悠长悠长又寂静的小巷
我也遭遇了丁香一样的姑娘,丁香一样的呼吸
还想看到你迎面走来撞见我
还想看到你难以置信的惊奇
还想看到你喊:“今天见着真人儿了!”
还想看到你的欢喜
还想看到你眨巴眨巴的大眼睛
还想看到你走在金色的西西里
还想看到你亦步亦趋的脚步
还想看到你一摇一摆的笑意

还想看到你与我望茉莉花开
还想看到你将长长的密码解析
还想看到你编织那云上的日子
还想看到你拿着重重的摄象机
还想看到你胶片上的轮椅
还想看到你笔下的秘密
还想看到你定格了谈笑风生
还想看到你记录那甜蜜
还想看到你高谈阔论
还想看到你东风无力

从古至今,一切的故事
其实都是相遇,然后分离
去吧,我送上永不流泪的祝福
然后告诉自己,不要忘记

只为那无法言说的表达
只为那两个人的奇迹
只为那上天谱写的命运
这就是一切意义的意义!

只为这一刻!连天使也爱这美丽!
记住这一切,记住那心之所向
我们永远约定的地方
我等待,在那崎岖的小路上,
会有人再次相遇
一个是我,一个是你。

Conference Chocolate

Today at the conference one guy was giving a talk about multicore processor. I was sitting in the back row and couldn't figure out those exquisit text on his slides. As it was getting around noon I felt pretty tired and hungry that the only things I could notice were the colors on the slides. They were very chocolate, brownish orange, brownish green, brownish yellow, dark chocolate with pumpkin flavor, chocolate with pistachio, chocolate with lemon flavor, hmmm.